Work it out

"I'm not your mother's favorite dog
I'm not the carpet you walk on
I'm not one small atomic bomb
I'm not anything at all"

Hello how are you?

I am not doing to good this job thing has really messed me up and the only

good news is that I can leave after a week or they can ask me to leave and I

could see both of them happening.

I can't sleep at night and I am thinking about going to no my anti depression

not that I was ever told to go off the in the first place.

I just worry what else they are doing to my body but I think it has get to the point

where it is just about getting thought the day.

I can not see years or weeks ahead not that I have ever been good at that.

Back it my school days I uses to say that I would never make it to 30 and

as they say " The foolish man built his house upon the sand" and that is what
it feels like that my foundations are slipping away from under me.

"We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark; the real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light."

I have got my jobs club tomorrow but I am not looking forward as they can't seem

to understand why I am not happy to have get the thing that I was meant to be look for.

I feel bad for all of the hard work that they have put in for me and how so many

other people who really need help and they can not get it.

There is a big part of me that would love to get all of my things and just go and 

stay down Brighton and I am sure that no one would miss me back here but 

“No matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself”

I don't want to live like this but I don't know who not to and I would like
to think that this story has a happy ending but as I sit here I just can't see it.

We must accept finite disappointment, but never lose infinite hope.