Friday 22 July 2022
Life 3
Wednesday 20 July 2022
Party
Sunday 17 July 2022
Life
"During the 1960s, I think, people forgot what emotions were supposed to be. And I don't think they've ever remembered"
Hello I hope that you are well. Sometimes amazing happen the other day I wake up and remember I was alive and that I was free to live my life and that I have been doing. I am living in the moment or atlas I am trying to and that is a good start.
I want to Hastings yesterday and I had a nice time there but I would have liked to have stayed a bit longer. I just love walking but the sea I always feel so free and at peace and I think about the past and I remember when we used to walk along together she was always so happy when she was by the sea it was like it was the first time she saw it ever time.
I remember never feeling at peace I was always worrying about what was going to happen or wishing that I could be someone else that I missed out on what I wanted the most someone who loved me us as I was.
"What if I stopped thinking of pain as something that needs to be numbed, fixed, dodged, and protected against? What if I tried to honor its presence in my body, to welcome it into the present?"
“Sometimes, people let the same problem make them miserable for years when they could just say, so what. That is one of my favourite things to say. So what.”
Truth
Healing 2
Healing
Friday 8 July 2022
Good
Nyc homeless
" The feelings that hurt most, the emotions that sting most, are those that are absurd - The longing for impossible things, precisely because they are impossible; nostalgia for what never was; the desire for what could have been; regret over not being someone else; dissatisfaction with the world’s existence. All these half-tones of the soul’s consciousness create in us a painful landscape, an eternal sunset of what we are."
Tattoo
Almost free
Sunday 3 July 2022
Life
Hi its been a while and I am good in some ways and I have been better in others. I am leaving and as the days go by I feel more and more that it is the right thing to do and that my happiness has to count for something. I don't know where I want to be in life I just know that I don't want to where I am.
A lot of this started when I had a few days away at Brighton and in the few days I felt good about life and I flet good about myself. I was enjoying the days not just waiting for the next one. I flet good to be around other people and they where opening up to me.
It shows me that there can be so much more to life and the only one stopping me living in was myself and all I have to do is found a way to break free. I know that money is important but it should never be a cage that we get locked in. I want to make the world a better place even if it is only for one person.
"The thought of maybe being a good person is what keeps me trying to be a good person."
Saturday 2 July 2022
Stranger things
"Some friends don't understand this. They don't understand how desperate I am to have someone say, I love you and I support you just the way you are because you're wonderful just the way you are. They don't understand that I can't remember anyone ever saying that to me. I am so demanding and difficult for my friends because I want to crumble and fall apart before them so that they will love me even though I am no fun, lying in bed, crying all the time, not moving. Depression is all about If you loved me you would."
Wednesday 29 June 2022
Between two kingdoms
"Some traumas, I learned, refuse to remain in the past, wreaking havoc in the form of triggers and flashbacks, nightmares and fits of rage, until they’ve been processed and given their proper place."
"The logical mind tries to remind itself that sometimes you must suffer in order to feel better. But the body has its own memory: It remembers who hurt it."
"Perhaps the greatest test of love is the way we act in times of need. It is the moment of accountability that all relationships seem to arc toward. I’ve prided myself on being a good friend in tough times—on being capable of sitting with hard things and going above what is required to be there for someone as they near the knife’s edge."
Casings
"Am I not good enough for youIs there something wrong with meYou say don't cry, you know you're mineBaby, don't you lie to meAm I just not what you wantAm I just not what you needIs there someone who has your heartThat keeps you gone away from meIs she prettier than meIs her skin softer than mineCan she give you what I can'tThe things I cry for every nightIs it something in how she movesWhen you're undressed inside her houseDoes she smile the way I doWhen she has you in her mouthDo you not love me like you didWhen you told me that it's fineThat I've been hurt, cause you've been tooAnd that kind of pain, you don't mindI think about you every dayCause I love you more than I thought I couldAnd now that you're gone I wanna dieCause I don't hate you like I know I shouldWas I not good enough for youWas there something wrong with meI just cry by myself at nightBut you'll never know and you'll never see"
Ariel ❤️ AML films
"Just be easier more understanding you never know what someone is going through"
"Maybe if more people stopped asked what made you do this' what's wrong more people would get help"
Three futures
Monday 20 June 2022
Be kind
"The Only Thing I Do Know Is That We Have To Be Kind. Please, Be Kind. Especially When We Don't Know What's Going On."
Everything
"Nothing Matters, Then All The Pain And Guilt You Feel For Making Nothing Of Your Life Goes Away – Sucked Into A Bagel.”
Life 3
" When I Choose To See The Good Side Of Things, I'm Not Being Naive. It Is Strategic And Necessary. It's How I Learned To Surv...
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"I mean, if you were to find a shattered mirror, find all the pieces, all the shards and all the tiny chips, and have whatever skill an...