Courage

Courage calls to courage everywhere, and its voice cannot be denied.

Hello this could be my last post as I no longer get very much from my online life.

I can not get away from the feeling that people just don't care and it is bringing me down.

I have not been having the best time for a few weeks now and I have been founding it harder at work and this has not been helped by not feeling well.

I just want more from life but I don't think that I will found it online.

“The belongings people accumulate throughout their lives will always own them. People seem to think if they had more they’d be happier or freer, but their possessions only chain them to the earth.” 

I thought that my new job would make me feel more apart of things but I am more

alone then ever and all I do is sit in my work with my things and that is my world .

I hope that this just a low but I have had 5 days off and I have done nothing with them.

I have just got out of bed a few times and then gone back to sleep for a few hours.

But as this could be my last post I sound remember that this blog as helped me in 

dark times and I sound not forget that or the people who where there for me then .

I hope that everything works out for all of you and thank you for taking time to read my blog.

In the End, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends. 

Fear

Your fear came from a place unknown
Sat down, made itself at home
It called your name the whole night through
Until it got the best of you
It's wide awake and never rests
Follows each one of your steps
And it hits you hard with ruthless fists
Can I kill it with a kiss?

I wish I could blow it off
Or find a way to shut its hungry mouth
Change the locks and chase it out
I'll shield you 'til it disappears
All my love against your fear
It won't let you get away

It teases you with whispered words
Holds you in a cold embrace
I set the table, cooked for two
But it walked through the door with you
It eats from your plate, it rules the room
It's pouring poison on your spoon

I wish I could blow it off

Or find a way to shut its hungry mouth
Change the locks and chase it out
I'll shield you 'til it disappears
All my love against your fear
We'll find a way to shut its hungry mouth
Change the locks and chase it out
I'll shield you 'til it disappears

It's wide awake
It's wide awake
I'll keep watch until you sleep
I'll stay up until it leaves
It laughed too soon
Thought it had won
But my love will roar
Your fear will run
We'll watch it run

We'll change the locks and chase it out
I'll shield you 'til it disappears
All my love against your fear
We'll find a way to shut its hungry mouth
Chase it down the street and out of town
I'll shield you 'til it disappears
All my love against your fear

Everybody's Insecure

Shark smile

She was a shark smile in a yellow van
She came around and I stole a glance
In my youth, a vampire
Evelyn shown quiet as roses sting
It came over me at a bad time
But who wouldn't ride on a moonlight line?
I had her in my eye, 85 down the road of a dead end gleam

And she said woo
Baby, take me
And I said woo
Baby, take me too

It came over her at a bad time
Riding through Winona down the dotted line
Held us gunning out
90 miles down the road of a dead end dream
She looked over with a part smile
Caught up in the twinkle, it could take awhile
And the money pile on the dashboard fluttering

As she said woo
Baby, take me
And I said woo
Baby, take me too

Evelyn's kiss was oxygen
I leaned over to take it in
As we went howling through the edge of south Des Moines
It came over me at a bad time
She burned over the double line
And she impaled as I reached my hand for the guardrail
Ooh the guardrail
Ooh the guardrail

She said woo
Baby, take me
And I said woo
Baby, take me too

She said woo
Baby, take me
And I said woo
Baby, take me too

Your Best American Girl

If I could, I'd be your little spoon
And kiss your fingers forevermore
But, big spoon, you have so much to do
And I have nothing ahead of me
You're the sun, you've never seen the night
But you hear its song from the morning birds
Well I'm not the moon, I'm not even a star
But awake at night I'll be singing to the birds

Don't wait for me, I can't come

Your mother wouldn't approve of how my mother raised me
But I do, I think I do
And you're an all-American boy
I guess I couldn't help trying to be your best American girl

You're the one
You're all I ever wanted
I think I'll regret this

Your mother wouldn't approve of how my mother raised me
But I do, I finally do
And you're an all-American boy
I guess I couldn't help trying to be the best American girl
Your mother wouldn't approve of how my mother raised me
But I do, I think do

Roses

Taking it slow, but it's not typical
He already knows that my love is fire
His heart was a stone, but then his hands roamed
I turned him to gold and it took him higher

Well, I'll be your daydream, I'll be your favorite things
We could be beautiful
Get drunk on the good life, I'll take you to paradise
Say you'll never let me go

Deep in my bones, I can feel you
Take me back to a time only we knew
Hideaway
We could waste the night with an old film
Smoke a little weed on the couch in the back room
Hideaway
Say you'll never let me go
Say you'll never let me go

Ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah
Say you'll never let me go
Say you'll never let me go
Say you'll never let me go
Say you'll never let me go

Deep in my bones, I can feel you
Take me back to a time only we knew
Hideaway
We could waste the night with an old film
Smoke a little weed on the couch in the back room
Hideaway
Say you'll never let me go
Say you'll never let me go

Ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah
Say you'll never let me go
Say you'll never let me go
Say you'll never let me go

You're not the only one I know

Where's the harm in voicing a doubt
You'll find me in the lavatory
And where's the harm in talking out loud
When I'm on my own
What's so wrong with reading my stars
When I'll be in the lavatory
And what is so wrong with counting the cars
When I'm all alone

You're not the only one that I know
And I'm too proud to talk to you anyway
You're not the only one that I know
And I'm far too proud to talk to you any day

So I say I'm in love with the world
And what is so wrong with voicing a doubt
When I'm on my own
It's perfectly fine to sleep in a chair
From Monday 'til Saturday
And what is so wrong with talking out loud
When I'm all alone

You're not the only one that I know
And I'm too proud to talk to you anyway
You're, you're not the only one that I know
But I'm far too proud to talk to you any day

So they rode out west to the seaside
And they gladly decided to stay
After two hours wandering outside
Ooh the sea air drove them away, yeah

You're not the only one that I know
And I'm too proud to talk to you anyway
You're not the only one that I know
And I'm far too proud to talk to you any day
You're not the only one
But I'm far too proud you're so
You're young
But I know, I know, I know, I know
I'm far too proud to talk to you any day
But if you do, don't you know
That I don't mind, no, no, no

Linger

If you, if you could return, don't let it burn, don't let it fade.
I'm sure I'm not being rude, but it's just your attitude,
It's tearing me apart, it's ruining everything.

I swore, I swore I would be true, and honey, so did you.
So why were you holding her hand? Is that the way we stand?
Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you?

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

Oh, I thought the world of you.
I thought nothing could go wrong,
But I was wrong. I was wrong.
If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie,
Things wouldn't be so confused and I wouldn't feel so used,
But you always really knew, I just wanna be with you.

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

And I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

Birthplace

I only have this one body

But I write, and I call when I can

And in the dust of the infinite lobby

I think of you, my friends

And my love is not an object

That rusts with lack of use

Suited perfectly for its purpose

As the day I gave it to you

It is a fresh page, it is a sharp knife

It is a cold call, it is an alibi

You are a universe of faces

But sometimes I go it alone

Fill my arms with what I can carry

And my body is my home

And if I lock on to a strange face

I see an ancient sun, I see my birthplace

And forgive me for my silence

I forget the follow through

And any lie I ever told you

Was to seek a better truth

You are a suitcase I never unpacked;

I am a green shirt that never left your back

We live in black and white, on a telephone pole

I can read the letters eyes closed