Still ill

All the money in the world can't buy you back good health. 

I feel so awful and that makes me feel afraid.
I just don't know why I feel so bad I understand my depression and I know how it works but being ill is something else and I hate it.
I have to go to my gp that is if I can get in and that is never easy but if it gets to bad I can try A & E.

I just wish that I know what is going on in my body and it is all getting to much.

What do you all think that I should do? 

It does make me feel better to write in my blog I guess that way it is not just going around

it my head and I can get it out. 

I wish that I had my time machine I only want to go a week ahead and just have a

look in to see how I am doing it is not asking a lot