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Lost time is never found again.

Hello so this has been a very bad week.

As well as my mind falling apart now my body was to take part as well.
I have had a bad hip for about three weeks now I thought it was nothing at first but now it is getting me down and to make things worse I will have to stand for 10 hours a day in my new job.
So where do I go from here my back is again the wall and I can not see a way out.    So it's do a job I can't do and that will break down my body even more or lose my money and end up homeless just trying to get thought the day.

I have never been the most hopeful person but right now I don't have any hope in the world or in myself.

I just don't know if I have a place in the world or if I did have I lost it and one's you lose it can you ever get it back again and to make things worse there is no one to help.

I just wish that I could live my life in pace and not be afraid everyday and I could face the day know that things will get better and that people care about other people and we don't just forget about the one's at the bottom.