35 and 362 days

You must not lose faith in humanity. Humanity is an ocean; if a few drops of the ocean are dirty, the ocean does not become dirty.

Hello so sadly my two days off are coming to an end but to be fair I have not done a lot.

I can't believe that I will be 36 in 3 days where has the time gone?

Am I the man I thought that I would be I am not sure but I am still here so that is

a victory in a way and when you start from nothing anything is up.

But maybe it is time to stop looking back and it is time to move on.

I was going to clean my room in my days off it's still not done I was going to

tweet my friend but it is still not done I was going to ring my job club but it is not done.

I was going to clean my work things but they are still not done.

Everything just feels so meaningless to me and I feel so cold and alone.

What does my life mean to anyone and what would change if I was not here?

Weather I like it or not I need people but they can be hard to understand and

they can hurt your feels and they can make you miss them and can end up 

pushing them away and then they may not come back again.

"It's a problem that our choices choose the wrong ones
That's probably the reason we're afraid we'll die alone
To a fault defending a simple course of action
We're distance and distraction from the nights we'd spend at home
Your eyes seem to observe my room so neatly
Behind the frames that used to greet me
At the bar around the block
Tonight they tell me that you never sleep too soundly
That you might have even missed me
More times than you could count
As you quietly let yourself out"