"I'm not your mother's favorite dog I'm not the carpet you walk on I'm not one small atomic bomb I'm not anything at all" Hello how are you? I am not doing to good this job thing has really messed me up and the only good news is that I can leave after a week or they can ask me to leave and I could see both of them happening. I can't sleep at night and I am thinking about going to no my anti depression not that I was ever told to go off the in the first place. I just worry what else they are doing to my body but I think it has get to the point where it is just about getting thought the day. I can not see years or weeks ahead not that I have ever been good at that. Back it my school days I uses to say that I would never make it to 30 and as they say " The foolish man built his house upon the sand" and that is what it feels like that my foundations are slipping away from under me. "We can easily forgi...
Tomorrow hopes we have learned something from yesterday. Hi so I had a good few days good days at work at last and I think that I maybe ok there in the end but we never know what is yet to come as I have found out. But it is nice to know people in the outside world I don't think online friends are going to work for me. Can someone be your friend if they are never there when you need them and they all always want to keep you at arm's length. I am not sure that is a friend to me it is just I ask nothing of you and you ask nothing of me it is all talk and no action it is words without the deeds to go with it. Maybe that is how people are friends now but that is not for me. Or maybe we are all just trying to found a way thought the day. I am feeling better about next year but this will be a year that I will never forget and maybe a year that I needed to put me on a new road even if I don't know where that road goes to. ...
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